Am I a girl who is at home today because I’m still trying to
figure out what to do with my life? Or am I a girl who is in reality a hermit in her
cave?
I went out last night and I just had no idea as to how to
socialize, talk or start a conversation. That really isn’t too normal with
me. I’ve always been able to make conversation with random strangers with ease
and keep talking for hours about anything under the sun. I dont know when in the last few
months I have misplaced that trait or where have I lost it?
All my really good friends are overseas. I have a couple here,
I think for the first time ever I feel like I miss having someone in the same country as me. Or I’m just
making excuses for being anti social.
I guess I’m just so stressed at home all the time that I
don’t know how to feel or how to behave. I think I’ve let my home situation
become me. That isn’t a very pleasant
thought. My home situation has become my cave and me its hermit.
Hope I can find a way back to life. Otherwise I have a
feeling you will be reading a lot more of these slightly sad posts.
WHAT AM I DOING:
on my terrace looking at heavy traffic on the road.
